Have you ever felt a little peculiar? Are great LGBTQIA+ inclusive books hard to find? What about approaching sensitive topics like complex PTSD and BDD? Here are three for you. Real, true-life stories of love, lust, torment, betrayal, abuse, passion, joy, and pain. Written with enough humor, an occasional tinge of sarcasm and inspiration from the heart. Click to read more or to see excerpts. Please enjoy! michaelhuntermcvay.com michaelhuntermcvay.net #queerbookstagram #lgbtbookstagram #queerreads #lgbtreads #queer #queerbooks #gaybooks #bookreview #bookrecommendations #gayromance #bookcommunity #kindle #kindleunlimited #kindlebooks #diversity #bookish #loveislove #lgbtqia #instagay #livrestagram #lgbt #lgbtpride #gaybooks #lgbtbooks #gay #PTSD #palmsprings #meridianms #writer #author #dollhouse #miniature #dollhouseminiatures #oneinchscale #dollhousesofinstagram #dollhouse #lovelylittleminiatures #miniaturist #meetthemaker #miniature #onetwelthscale #dollshouse #dollshouseminiatures #scalemodels #dollshousedecor #diorama #roomboxes #fantasyminiatures #handmadeuk # #gaylove #gayberlin #gayköln #gaydortmund #gaydude #schwule #gaynrw #gaymen #🏳️‍🌈 #lovegay #schwulundstolzdrauf #gayinsta #gayinstagram #instadaily #instaart #gay #lgbt #instagay #loveislove #queer #palmsprings

"The Repulsive Tales of Wayward Fern When Drinking and Thinking Don't Mix" ISBN-13 979-8710324011 Innocent bystander, Curtis Reynolds, was walking his dog, Daryl, when the two of them stumbled upon a raging, hormonal, beast of nature, FERN, busily cleaning out her cooter in a lake just outside of a small Mississippi town. Does love blossom between them? Hardly! Curtis is a hard-working, openly gay, single man who is always trying to do the right thing. Fern, his newly found "friend from the lake" is a drunken, self-absorbed, self-admitted sex-addict who is always in search of a good time, a cold beverage and a cigarette. But is she all bad? Yeah, probably. But is it her fault? Maybe! She manages to squeeze her way into as many bizarre situations as possible, wreaking havoc upon the residents of sleepy Meridian. How did she suddenly appear in the lake? Where did she come from and what does she want from poor Curtis? ​ Fern can be a real twat, as you will see, but is she lovable? She cannot be all bad, right? What is she like when she's sober? Who lives and who dies? Will Underdog swoop in and save the day? Or perhaps Mighty Mouse? Scooby Doo? Curtis? You'll have to read this almost entirely true HOMO-EROTIC story to find out! A couple of names were barely changed to protect the guilty. 18+ Paperback https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08YQCSDBL Kindle eBook https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08YYXBL8M (readable on any device) available at Amazon If you can't find copies in your country, ask author for link. :) #queerbookstagram #lgbtbookstagram #queerreads #lgbtreads #queer #queerbooks #gaybooks #bookreview #bookrecommendations #gayromance #bookcommunity #kindle #kindleunlimited #kindlebooks #diversity #bookish #loveislove #lgbtqia #instagay #livrestagram #lgbt #lgbtpride #gaybooks #lgbtbooks #gay #PTSD #palmsprings #meridianms #writer #author #dollhouse #miniature #dollhouseminiatures #oneinchscale #dollhousesofinstagram #dollhouse #lovelylittleminiatures #miniaturist #meetthemaker #miniature #onetwelthscale #dollshouse #dollshouseminiatures #scalemodels #dollshousedecor #diorama #roomboxes #fantasyminiatures #handmadeuk #gaylove #gayberlin #gayköln #gaydortmund #gaydude #schwule #gaynrw #gaymen #🏳️‍🌈 #lovegay #schwulundstolzdrauf #gayinsta #gayinstagram #instadaily #instaart #gay #lgbt #instagay #loveislove #queer #palmsprings

"MICHAEL, Little Boy Black & Blue Surviving the Effects of a Poisonous Child Abuser" ISBN-13 979-8701820690 Michael, Little Boy Black & Blue, chronicles the life and the experiences of an LGBTQ+ youth who endured unimaginable mental and physical abuse and violence starting at the age of five, in the early 1960s, continuing through the gay movement of the 1970s, the AIDS epidemic and its backlash of the 1980s and beyond, which resulted in his development of severe complex PTSD and other health conditions. ​ Michael refused to be bound by his past, but he found that it has a way of catching up when least expected. His, is a story of pain, loss and torment, but it also serves as an example of hope, perseverance and resilience. Through his journey, he was able to overcome the temptations of suicide, drugs, sexual abuse and torture to become a successful artist, a teacher and a miniaturist, all while searching for someone that he never knew he had lost. 18+ Paperback https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08VCQWT9L Kindle eBook https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08VDRFGB5 (readable on any device) available at Amazon If you can't find copies in your country, ask author for link. :) #queerbookstagram #lgbtbookstagram #queerreads #lgbtreads #queer #queerbooks #gaybooks #bookreview #bookrecommendations #gayromance #bookcommunity #kindle #kindleunlimited #kindlebooks #diversity #bookish #loveislove #lgbtqia #instagay #livrestagram #lgbt #lgbtpride #gaybooks #lgbtbooks #gay #PTSD #palmsprings #meridianms #writer #author #dollhouse #miniature #dollhouseminiatures #oneinchscale #dollhousesofinstagram #dollhouse #lovelylittleminiatures #miniaturist #meetthemaker #miniature #onetwelthscale #dollshouse #dollshouseminiatures #scalemodels #dollshousedecor #diorama #roomboxes #fantasyminiatures #handmadeuk #gaylove #gayberlin #gayköln #gaydortmund #gaydude #schwule #gaynrw #gaymen #🏳️‍🌈 #lovegay #schwulundstolzdrauf #gayinsta #gayinstagram #instadaily #instaart #gay #lgbt #instagay #loveislove #queer #palmsprings

"MICHAEL, Little Boy Black & Blue Surviving the Effects of a Poisonous Child Abuser" ISBN-13 979-8701820690 Michael, Little Boy Black & Blue, chronicles the life and the experiences of an LGBTQ+ youth who endured unimaginable mental and physical abuse and violence starting at the age of five, in the early 1960s, continuing through the gay movement of the 1970s, the AIDS epidemic and its backlash of the 1980s and beyond, which resulted in his development of severe complex PTSD and other health conditions. ​ Michael refused to be bound by his past, but he found that it has a way of catching up when least expected. His, is a story of pain, loss and torment, but it also serves as an example of hope, perseverance and resilience. Through his journey, he was able to overcome the temptations of suicide, drugs, sexual abuse and torture to become a successful artist, a teacher and a miniaturist, all while searching for someone that he never knew he had lost. 18+ Paperback https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08VCQWT9L Kindle eBook https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08VDRFGB5 (readable on any device) available at Amazon If you can't find copies in your country, ask author for link. :) #queerbookstagram #lgbtbookstagram #queerreads #lgbtreads #queer #queerbooks #gaybooks #bookreview #bookrecommendations #gayromance #bookcommunity #kindle #kindleunlimited #kindlebooks #diversity #bookish #loveislove #lgbtqia #instagay #livrestagram #lgbt #lgbtpride #gaybooks #lgbtbooks #gay #PTSD #palmsprings #meridianms #writer #author #dollhouse #miniature #dollhouseminiatures #oneinchscale #dollhousesofinstagram #dollhouse #lovelylittleminiatures #miniaturist #meetthemaker #miniature #onetwelthscale #dollshouse #dollshouseminiatures #scalemodels #dollshousedecor #diorama #roomboxes #fantasyminiatures #handmadeuk #gaylove #gayberlin #gayköln #gaydortmund #gaydude #schwule #gaynrw #gaymen #🏳️‍🌈 #lovegay #schwulundstolzdrauf #gayinsta #gayinstagram #instadaily #instaart #gay #lgbt #instagay #loveislove #queer #palmsprings

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In addition to michaelhuntermcvay.com now there is also michaelhuntermcvay.net !! So much to see and do. You can go to the other website, if you would like to hear me read blurbs and excerpts from my books, or you can sample it below. There is nothing special about my voice nor my accent, but I am happy to read the post for you! Just go there and look for places to click. You will be directed to "SPOTIFY" or "Anchor" to listen to readings from my playlists. For the moment, this is new, so it will take a while to grow this functionality. But there are already a few bits available for your listening or read-along pleasure. Look for more soon. The image drawn is an illustration I created many years ago with no one particular in mind. Many years after I drew it, I figured out who it may be. I was a tease? Nah! These are pictures that "Zee" took of me. You can read about it in the memoirs I & II, "Michael, Little Boy Black & Blue." Life seemed easier before the complex PTSD came rushing in unexpectedly.

The latest book is out! Book number two of the "surviving" trilogy. "Michael, Little Boy Blacker & Bluer: Surviving the Effects of a Poisonous Child Abuser II," is a companion book to the first memoir that was published earlier. Here's a bit more information! Let's venture into the life of a person who struggles with complex PTSD. It's not all bad! "Michael, Little Boy Blacker & Bluer," is the continuing saga which chronicles the life and the experiences of an LGBTQ+ youth who endured unimaginable mental and physical abuse and violence starting at the age of five, in the early 1960s, continuing through the gay movement and the Anita Bryant years of the 1970s, the AIDS epidemic and its backlash of the 1980s and beyond, which resulted in Michael's development of complex PTSD, BDD, and other health conditions related to trauma. This companion edition covers events and people who were not fully explored in the first memoir, "Michael, Little Boy Black & Blue" as well as providing a deeper voyage into self-healing, and an inside, closer glimpse at Michael's passions. There are dozens of images of his vintage Barbie doll and miniature collections. A lifetime of building and creating! Michael refused to be bound by his past, but he found that it had a way of catching up to him when he least expected it. While his, is a story of pain, loss and torment, it also serves as an example of hope, perseverance and resilience. There are excerpts from each book on this site. Look carefully to find them. We hope that if you have ever felt different, or ever felt alone because of your upbringing or any other horrible thing that happened to you, which you carry with you now, that you will find inspiration and verification in these books. You will read truths written by a mind that had to adapt and develop differently. Is there a future for people like us? Of course there is! Will it ever go away? No, but we can learn coping mechanisms and better ways to deal with. Michael shows you what works for him, but it is a constant battle. Let's when the war together! Through his journey, he was able to overcome the temptations of suicide, drugs, sexual abuse and torture to become a successful artist, a teacher and a miniaturist, all while searching for someone that he never knew he had lost. This book is a must, if you have read his first memoir. Michael uncovers truths that he was not ready to share in the first book and takes you with him on a frightening ride through a miserable childhood, while remaining calm about it. Are you ready to dig in and see what we can uncover together? #LGBTQ+ #complexPTSD #GayAuthor #GayWriter #LGBT #GayMan #ChildAbuse #AdultSurvivor #PleaseBuyMyBooks #MichaelMcVay #michaelhuntermcvay #queerbookstagram #lgbtbookstagram #queerreads #lgbtreads #queer #queerbooks #gaybooks #bookreview #bookrecommendations #gayromance #bookcommunity #kindle #kindleunlimited #kindlebooks #diversity #bookish #loveislove #lgbtqia #instagay #livrestagram #lgbt #lgbtpride #lgbtbooks #gay #PTSD #palmsprings #meridianms #writer #author #gaylove #gayberlin #gaydude #schwule #gaymen #🏳️‍🌈 #lovegay #schwulundstolzdrauf #gayinsta #gayinstagram #miniature #dollhouseminiatures #oneinchscale #dollhousesofinstagram #dollhouse #lovelylittleminiatures #miniaturist #meetthemaker #miniature #onetwelthscale #dollshouse #dollshouseminiatures #scalemodels #dollshousedecor #diorama #roomboxes #fantasyminiatures #handmadeuk #miniworld #tinyworld #puppenhaus #instadaily #instaart #gay #lgbt #instagay #loveislove #queer #palmsprings

"I LOVED this book!" Dr. Luke Pickles "I couldn't put it down until I was done!" Christina Lester "Lordy Mercy, this shit's crazy! I love it!" Robert Land “The Repulsive Tales of Wayward Fern: When Drinking and Thinking Don’t Mix“ ISBN-13 979-8710324011 After going through a breakup with her significant other in Texas, Fern suddenly finds herself washing out her cooter in a lake in Meridian, Mississippi. Fern is an adventurous young go-getter who loves to dance, drink, smoke, and unwittingly turn everyone’s world upside down by her mere presence alone! In Meridian, Fern finds and falls in love with a hard-working, career man, Curtis, who soon becomes entangled in her unhinged web of insanity, promiscuity, and utter ridiculousness. Curtis is openly gay – but this is no Will & Grace story! Once Fern is cut loose, all Hell breaks loose! Maybe she means well, but her efforts rarely end as intended. Fern goes after whatever she wants, and no one seems to stand in her way, but her life is a puzzle, and there are several pieces missing! This true story of real people will drive you nuts! A few names may have been changed to protect the guilty, but the situations are real and several people gave the okay to leave their names as is. Oh my! You will meet a variety of unforgettable and lovable characters whose lives are forever changed after meeting “Wayward Fern!” Would you take her in? Find out why you should…..or shouldn’t! There is literally no turning back. Buckle up and take a wild ride on the complex PTSD slide! 18+ Thelma Blankenship says, “Reading this book was like stepping in dog mess. I washed it all off of me, but the smell seems to linger.” Hiener Judruld says, “190 pages is way more than I have ever read, but I couldn’t put this damn book down, and this time I didn’t have superglue on my fingers.” Finesha LeRue says, “Oh my Jesus! I felt so weird after reading this book, but I hope there will be a series of them. I love bat-shit crazy stuff!” Have you ever felt a little different? Are great LGBTQIA+ inclusive books hard to find? What about approaching topics like complex PTSD and BDD? Real, true-life stories of love, lust, torment, betrayal, abuse, passion, joy, and pain. Written with enough humor, an occasional tinge of sarcasm and inspiration from the heart. Click to read more or to see excerpts. Please enjoy! Everyone needs at least one CHEESY photo! Curtis? #GayAuthor #GayWriter #LGBTQ+ #LGBTAuthor #MichaelMcVay #michaelhuntermcvay #ComplexPTSD #AdultSurvivor #PleaseBuyMyBook #LGBTQChildAbuse #GayChildAbuse #ComplexPTSD #AdultSurvivor #GayAuthor #michaelhuntermcvay #MichaelMcVay #LGBTQ+ #complexPTSD #GayAuthor #GayWriter #LGBT #GayMan #ChildAbuse #AdultSurvivor #PleaseBuyMyBooks #MichaelMcVay #michaelhuntermcvay #queerbookstagram #lgbtbookstagram #queerreads #lgbtreads #queer #queerbooks #gaybooks #bookreview #bookrecommendations #gayromance #bookcommunity #kindle #kindleunlimited #kindlebooks #diversity #bookish #loveislove #lgbtqia #instagay #livrestagram #lgbt #lgbtpride #lgbtbooks #gay #PTSD #palmsprings #meridianms #writer #author #gaylove #gayberlin #gaydude #schwule #gaymen #🏳️‍🌈 #lovegay #schwulundstolzdrauf #gayinsta #gayinstagram #miniature #dollhouseminiatures #oneinchscale #dollhousesofinstagram #dollhouse #lovelylittleminiatures #miniaturist #meetthemaker #miniature #onetwelthscale #dollshouse #dollshouseminiatures #scalemodels #dollshousedecor #diorama #roomboxes #fantasyminiatures #handmadeuk #miniworld #tinyworld #puppenhaus #instadaily #instaart #gay #lgbt #instagay #loveislove #queer #palmsprings

Which books are your favorites? My first Book was this memoir of surviving child abuse: "Michael, Little Boy Black & Blue: Surviving the Effects of a Poisonous Child Abuser" "Michael’s early childhood was riddled with extreme abuse and violence perpetrated by his stepfather. Michael's father committed suicide as a young adult. He and his mother attempted suicide as well. Michael rarely let on about his struggles until he realized that there was much more going on than he could handle on his own. I was intensely moved and deeply changed by reading his memoir." Harley Jones "Michael, Little Boy Black & Blue," chronicles the life and the experiences of a Southern LGBTQIA+ youth who endured unimaginable mental and physical abuse and violence starting at the age of five, in the early 1960s, continuing through the gay movement of the 1970s, the AIDS epidemic and its backlash of the 1980s and beyond, which resulted in his development of severe PTSD and other health conditions. Michael refused to be bound by his past, but he found that it has a way of catching up when least expected. His, is a story of pain, loss and torment, but it also serves as an example of hope, perseverance and resilience. Through his journey, he was able to overcome the temptations of suicide, drugs, sexual abuse and torture to become a successful artist, a teacher and a miniaturist, all while searching for someone that he never knew he had lost. What may you find out about yourself when you read about someone else? “An excerpt from Michael, Little Boy Black & Blue” One day, when I was eighteen years old, I was driving Brian Keith McCann home from our high school in my cream-colored 1976 Oldsmobile Cutlass Supreme. The year was 1980. Brian was a senior and I was a junior at Sulphur High School in Sulphur, Louisiana. We had the radio turned up loud and we were both singing, laughing, and joking. I was feeling giddy. Then, after a few radio-announcements, a song came on. Brian said, "I love this song!" He began to sing along with it. I was instantly spell-bound by him, although I had known him for several months. I pulled the car off the road to hear him singing without the distraction of driving. He sang directly to me. I looked into his blue eyes and I watched his lips moving as he serenaded me. Inside my heart, I finally admitted to myself that I was in love with this handsome fellow, but I did not dare tell him. I knew then and there that I wanted to remember this beautiful boy and this glorious day forever. When I was five years old, a monster brutalized me, then urinated all over my fresh wounds in the bathtub of his tiny, shitty trailer. My mother had just married the horrible man who did it to me. Thirteen years later, this new stepfather of mine, erased all my beautiful memories of Brian Keith McCann from my mind – almost forever. "MICHAEL Little Boy Black & Blue: Surviving the Effects of a Poisonous Child Abuser" Excerpt: The start of CHAPTER THREE CHAPTER THREE – Shit Just Got Real! GUY - The First REAL Punisher Shortly after my mother left with Daddy-D, the monster told me to get up and go bend over the bathtub. I knew by now that, "bend over the bathtub" meant that I was about to get a spanking. I had several from him already. I started crying and I began asking him what I did. Guy did not respond, he just said, quite calmly, at first, "go bend over the tub." I was getting up slowly. He screamed, "NOW!" So, I jumped up off the floor and stepped into the bathroom. I kept trying to say that I was sorry for whatever I did and that I would never do it again. I bent over and reached my hands down into the tub, with my backside facing him. He took off his belt and told me to drop my pants and underwear. This time was different. So, I stood back up to slip my pants and underwear down, I was so afraid when I bent back over the tub. I had to brace myself with my hands on the bottom of the inside of the tub to keep from falling into it. I noticed a drip from the faucet just as I became aware of my own tears falling in unison with the droplets. I felt the first mild whack on my backside. Then another. And another. He was just warming up! Then, he beat the crap out of my five-year-old butt while I screamed in agony, shock, and horror! This was the worst I had been given yet. I did not know why it was happening or when it was ever going to stop. What had I done? Then, and this gets more disturbing, so - fair warning.... He said, "Stand up now. Aww, now stop the crying," with an almost baby-like voice to me. He undressed me all the way - somewhat gently, not so forcefully now, but I was hurting bad and I kept trying to put my tiny hands over my burning, stinging butt cheeks, thinking he was about to do it again, or something worse. I had no idea what was about to happen. Then, he said that I was going to have a bath. I could hear the rotting floor creaking and snapping beneath him as he wobbled about. He bent down and lifted me into the tub, but he did not turn on the water. I stood there waiting to do as he instructed - whatever it takes to keep him from spanking me again. I knew that I was sniveling and crying, but I was trying to stop, to "be a big boy," for him, because "big boys don't cry." He hesitated a minute or two. I could feel him looking at me, but I did not want to look up at him and he did not tell me to. He dropped his pants and placed one hand on the wall behind me, to steady himself, as he leaned in toward the tub. Then he took his other hand and held out his scary looking uncut dick, which he positioned so near my face that I could not help but look at it, and then he just peed all over me, as I stood there in that old, stained trailer bathtub seething with pain. At first, I think that I tried to grab at the shower curtain, but he screamed at me. "Who's your daddy now!" he said, repeatedly. I did not know what was going on. He told me to turn around while he was still peeing on me. He said that I was his own personal toilet and then he said that I needed to stop turning around and keep very still. I was only turning around because I did not know when to stop. I thought I was doing it wrong. Now, I stood still, and he finished, as he seemed to bob from side to side. I well-recall how the urine burned the areas of my butt that had whelps from his black leather belt. I think the silver metal buckle part hit me occasionally. I never once looked at his face while he did this shit to me. I saw everything else though. Why? Why was he doing this to me? Now, as an adult, I know there is no answer for that. But I knew then that I had better do just as he said. The image of his uncut dick and that giant fur-ball of massive black bush never left my mind. I do not mean for that to sound anything but horrifying, because that is exactly what it was to me as a five-year-old. I had certainly never seen anything like that before that day! Every detail of that first incident is permanently etched into my head forever. Sadly, I had to experience that shit again and again and again over the next two days, and then for years to come. And I knew while standing there covered in his beer piss with my red-hot whelps on my butt that it was all because I had said, "You're not my daddy!" At least, that is how I tried to make sense of it. So, I tried, after this - I really did. I wanted to do whatever was necessary to prevent the beatings. I tried speaking only when spoken to and I tried to say everything exactly right to him, as best I could. I kept everything neat and tidy, but it did not work. It never worked. Apparently, I looked at him wrong or I blinked wrong or something. I was always simply wrong! Any time was a good time for a spanking now - again and again. He still had lots of beer left in the refrigerator and lots of beer left inside of himself. When Daddy-D finally brought my mother back from spending a day or two with Maw-Maw at the hospital, she told me that my grandmother was getting worse and that things were really bad with her health. I wanted to go see Maw-Maw and to stay with her, but mom said that she was still in the hospital recuperating from a surgery and that I could not go see her. I thought with Mom back home, maybe Guy would not pee on me anymore, like he had been doing the whole time she was away. I remember wanting to tell her what he did, but I was afraid he would hear me, even if he was not inside the trailer. Guy came inside after small talking with my grandfather, who was leaving now, after dropping off my mother. I heard the engine start and I ran outside. I started crying and I begged Daddy-D to let me go with him. He started waving bye to me! “No! No! Don’t leave,” I cried! Guy ran out and snatched me up and took me inside the hovel. Through the window, we waved at Daddy-D, and watched him drive off. Then, Guy looked at us and he slammed his beer down on the table. He started questioning Mom. He proceeded to beat up on her, "for leaving that damn baby with me for two ______ nights!" I never forgot anything that happened that day. #LGBTQChildAbuse #GayChildAbuse #ComplexPTSD #AdultSurvivor #GayAuthor #michaelhuntermcvay #MichaelMcVay #LGBTQ+ #complexPTSD #GayAuthor #GayWriter #LGBT #GayMan #ChildAbuse #AdultSurvivor #PleaseBuyMyBooks #MichaelMcVay #michaelhuntermcvay #queerbookstagram #lgbtbookstagram #queerreads #lgbtreads #queer #queerbooks #gaybooks #bookreview #bookrecommendations #gayromance #bookcommunity #kindle #kindleunlimited #kindlebooks #diversity #bookish #loveislove #lgbtqia #instagay #livrestagram #lgbt #lgbtpride #lgbtbooks #gay #PTSD #palmsprings #meridianms #writer #author #gaylove #gayberlin #gaydude #schwule #gaymen #🏳️‍🌈 #lovegay #schwulundstolzdrauf #gayinsta #gayinstagram #miniature #dollhouseminiatures #oneinchscale #dollhousesofinstagram #dollhouse #lovelylittleminiatures #miniaturist #meetthemaker #miniature #onetwelthscale #dollshouse #dollshouseminiatures #scalemodels #dollshousedecor #diorama #roomboxes #fantasyminiatures #handmadeuk #miniworld #tinyworld #puppenhaus #instadaily #instaart #gay #lgbt #instagay #loveislove #queer #palmsprings

"Michael, Little Boy Black & Blue: Surviving the Effects of a Poisonous Child Abuser," is a coming of age LGBTQIA+ story of one boy's experiences with the adult aftermath of child abuse. His is a survival story of extreme child abuse, torture, violence, and its repercussions on him as an adult. This book is an LGBT child abuse memoir about overcoming unimaginable horrors and coping with complex PTSD. Michael is a gay adult survivor of such extreme child abuse that it resulted in the development of complex PTSD and BDD, after years spent with a repulsive child abuser. In this first memoir you can read about how he coped with the pain and agony while he was experiencing it. Decades of torture and torment that started when he was barely five years old, which continued through his adulthood, and even long after when fresh memories of his nightmarish childhood were unblocked and released - some after forty years. Now living with complex PTSD, Michael writes about the difficulty of feeling helpless while he was abused and of seeing his mother repeatedly tortured and verbally abused by his stepfather. They both suffered from this man's abuse, hunger, and torture at his hands, never knowing when or how it might end. Michael lived to write about it, but his mother did not. He is a survivor, who despite being told that he was worthless on a daily basis, learned to overcome the stigma and the wounds that his stepfather inflicted upon him, to become a successful teacher and to live a full life filled with hope, love and compassion. His story is not an easy one, but he adds his sense of humor throughout the book. He can even laugh at some of his experiences now. He shows us his resilience and his will to live, even during the darkest of days. Michael hopes that his story will inspire others and show that it is possible to thrive even after living through decades of abuse. No childhood is perfect, but if there is a tragic story that can bring hope - this one is it! Michael has several other books on the horizon, two more of which are nearing completion. If his first published account of his life of abuse goes over well, he intends to follow it up with additional episodes that he did not include in the first book, if there is interest in it. In "Michael, Little Boy Black & Blue," the author barely scratched the surface. But he did not write the book with the intention of publishing it. It was an exercise in therapy and self-help. When he first had memory flash-backs, he knew that he needed professional help and he was able to seek it out right away. He was assigned to write about his childhood and abuse in an effort to free more blocked and compartmentalized memories, and to desensitize himself to recollections that were extremely uncomfortable. Michael decided to make his memoir of some of these experiences public - for all to see, if interested. He found it far more liberating than keeping it all inside. Michael said, "Writing it on paper is no different than keeping it bottled up inside, if I am still the only one aware of it!" Michael hopes to be able to help others who may be having difficulty coping with memories of childhood abuse. He has shared his love of miniatures and he realizes that building and creating a non-stop world of miniature structures was an escape/coping mechanism for himself. Now, Michael plans to use images of his dozens of structures in his books because they were always part of his life. He will give you the good and the bad. Readers can share with him too. That is what this blog is for. It is for all of us. What have you been through? What holds you back? We're not experts but we can listen! We can share what we know and we will not judge you. If you feel like opening up, this is your chance. If you need to talk to Michael, will make sure he sees your message. Peace! "Even at my darkest times, while being horribly abused and neglected, I tried to remain calm and I entertained myself in my head with anything that I could think of to take my mind off of what was happening!" An excerpt from the book: By the time I found myself hanging from a rotting wooden beam in an old dusty garage, with ropes tied around my wrists and black electrical tape wrapped around my head to cover my mouth, I had already become numb to near-daily abuse. I was eight when I gazed at the dirty concrete floor below my bare dangling feet, calmly wondering if I would fall or if the monster would swoop in at the last minute to save me. I stopped tasting the salt of my own tears, because I only cried for the first few minutes – this time. #LGBTQChildAbuse #GayChildAbuse #ComplexPTSD #AdultSurvivor #GayAuthor #michaelhuntermcvay #MichaelMcVay #LGBTQ+ #complexPTSD #GayAuthor #GayWriter #LGBT #GayMan #ChildAbuse #AdultSurvivor #PleaseBuyMyBooks #MichaelMcVay #michaelhuntermcvay #queerbookstagram #lgbtbookstagram #queerreads #lgbtreads #queer #queerbooks #gaybooks #bookreview #bookrecommendations #gayromance #bookcommunity #kindle #kindleunlimited #kindlebooks #diversity #bookish #loveislove #lgbtqia #instagay #livrestagram #lgbt #lgbtpride #lgbtbooks #gay #PTSD #palmsprings #meridianms #writer #author #gaylove #gayberlin #gaydude #schwule #gaymen #🏳️‍🌈 #lovegay #schwulundstolzdrauf #gayinsta #gayinstagram #miniature #dollhouseminiatures #oneinchscale #dollhousesofinstagram #dollhouse #lovelylittleminiatures #miniaturist #meetthemaker #miniature #onetwelthscale #dollshouse #dollshouseminiatures #scalemodels #dollshousedecor #diorama #roomboxes #fantasyminiatures #handmadeuk #miniworld #tinyworld #puppenhaus #instadaily #instaart #gay #lgbt #instagay #loveislove #queer #palmsprings

Top reviews Top review from Australia ***** Mimi Bunderla 5.0 out of 5 stars child abuse Reviewed in Australia on 3 February 2021Verified Purchase This is an inspirational book about a child abuse back in the 1960s and 1970s. I thoroughly enjoyed reading about Michaels experiences, and try to become the man he is today. Great reading :) Top reviews from the United States ***** Jessica Hosey 5.0 out of 5 stars The best book I have read in a while Reviewed in the United States on February 4, 2021Verified Purchase This is a must read book! Thank you for sharing you life with us! If you write another book please let me know! ***** Beverly Dean 5.0 out of 5 stars Terrifying and humorous! LOVED it! Reviewed in the United States on February 2, 2021Verified Purchase A well written book of one man's account from childhood through adulthood dealing with the aftermath of physical and sexual abuse and PTSD. ***** ShanesGirl13 5.0 out of 5 stars An Absolute Must Read! Reviewed in the United States on January 30, 2021Verified Purchase If you're part of the LGBTQ+ community, a victim or survivor of abuse, Michael, Little Boy Black and Blue is a must-read. You will laugh at the precocious toddler and cry with the child growing up in an abusive environment. You will follow Michael as he goes through the grieving process for the child he was, the love he lost, and as he searches for a way to heal. I couldn't put this book down once I started it. I wanted to know what happened to the adorable toddler and follow his journey to the man he is today. Top review from United Kingdom ***** Polly 5.0 out of 5 stars Raw and real account. Totally recommend. Reviewed in the United Kingdom on 5 February 2021Verified Purchase I read this book in super fast time as I couldn’t put it down. Well done Michael for having enormous courage to publish such a real and raw account of your life. There were some laughs and some tears. The detailed descriptions of observations made about people coming from a very young child were delightful. Which helped somewhat with the other parts to read. Your life has been quite extraordinary. It is written with photos throughout which bring it more to life for the reader. I definitely recommend this book. ***** Andrea Collum 5.0 out of 5 stars A True Survivor's Story Reviewed in the United States on February 13, 2021Verified Purchase I ordered the book on Kindle as soon as it was available, and then ordered the paperback, too. I read it in one sitting. My emotions ran the gamut from profound sadness to joy, anger to happiness. Michael Hunter's recount of his life is a must read for survivors of abuse as well members of the LGBTQ community and allies. He tells of his life from an idyllic early childhood to current times and bares his life and soul to those of us who take this ride with him. His is the story of ultimate survival, after a lifetime of pain and suffering, and leaves us knowing that we can be battered, but never broken. ***** Klabak1 5.0 out of 5 stars A long road to recover Reviewed in the United States on March 28, 2021Verified Purchase How we survive our life is a testament of our strength. The author demonstrates through his memories a will to survive and a strength beyond what any 5 year old should have or need. I shed tears off and on through this book for not just the child but for the man that he became. Thank you for sharing your story Michael. ***** Becky 5.0 out of 5 stars A sad yet uplifting story of survival Reviewed in the United States on February 12, 2021Verified Purchase This book is winding journey. Sad and horrific stories yet there is a resilient hopeful and positive hope. It read very therapeutic for the Author as well as the reader. ***** Connie Ness 5.0 out of 5 stars An amazing story of survival and perseverance. Reviewed in the United States on March 26, 2021Verified Purchase Heartwarming to Unbelievable...a journey of survival. I could not put it down once I started. I smiled and giggled at the toddler...I cried for the lost innocence. I applaud the courage it takes to share your life story with us. I love and respect the man you have become. A must read!! ***** STACEY WELLS 5.0 out of 5 stars Survival Reviewed in the United States on April 6, 2021Verified Purchase This is amazing survival story. My brother was authors first love. ***** Kelly 5.0 out of 5 stars One definitely not to miss. Reviewed in the United Kingdom on March 5, 2021Verified Purchase I literally couldn't put this book down. Beautifully and so bravely written, poignant and hugely touching, Michael Little Boy Black & Blue sheds a bright light on the nightmare that is living with CPTSD and the horrendous abuse that so often goes on silently and untold. Couldn't recommend highly enough. ***** Janie Higgins 5.0 out of 5 stars A Must Read Reviewed in Canada on February 8, 2021Verified Purchase A well-written book~brutally honest but tinged with humour. You will want to read "Michael Little Boy Black & Blue: Surviving the Effects of a Poisonous Child Abuser" in one sitting. 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What inspires you to write? What inspires your hobbies? For me, it's travel! Living in sunny Southern California has many travel advantages from day-trips to week-end or week long cruises from a variety of ports all along the coastline. There is so much inspiration. Wherever you are, there is surely a place to find inspiration to write, photograph or build. Vacations and Get-Away Weekends! Cruising! Departing from California, there are any number of ports to choose from for as few as 2 day cruises to multi-month long cruises. During sea days, it is not only relaxing and fun to PICK UP A BOOK in the ship's library, but it is even fore fun to write! Write about your trip! How many times will you go where you've been? Traveling by foot for inspiration! What gets you thinking about your story? #LGBTQChildAbuse #GayChildAbuse #ComplexPTSD #AdultSurvivor #GayAuthor #michaelhuntermcvay #MichaelMcVay #LGBTQ+ #complexPTSD #GayAuthor #GayWriter #LGBT #GayMan #ChildAbuse #AdultSurvivor #PleaseBuyMyBooks #MichaelMcVay #michaelhuntermcvay #queerbookstagram #lgbtbookstagram #queerreads #lgbtreads #queer #queerbooks #gaybooks #bookreview #bookrecommendations #gayromance #bookcommunity #kindle #kindleunlimited #kindlebooks #diversity #bookish #loveislove #lgbtqia #instagay #livrestagram #lgbt #lgbtpride #lgbtbooks #gay #PTSD #palmsprings #meridianms #writer #author #gaylove #gayberlin #gaydude #schwule #gaymen #🏳️‍🌈 #lovegay #schwulundstolzdrauf #gayinsta #gayinstagram #miniature #dollhouseminiatures #oneinchscale #dollhousesofinstagram #dollhouse #lovelylittleminiatures #miniaturist #meetthemaker #miniature #onetwelthscale #dollshouse #dollshouseminiatures #scalemodels #dollshousedecor #diorama #roomboxes #fantasyminiatures #handmadeuk #miniworld #tinyworld #puppenhaus #instadaily #instaart #gay #lgbt #instagay #loveislove #queer #palmsprings