Michael
- Mar 30, 2021
- 2 min read

"The Repulsive Tales of Wayward Fern: When Drinking & Thinking Don't Mix"

"I LOVED this book!"

Dr. Luke Pickles

"I couldn't put it down until I was done!"

Christina Lester

"Lordy Mercy, this shit's crazy! I love it!"

Robert Land

“The Repulsive Tales of Wayward Fern: When Drinking and Thinking Don’t Mix“

ISBN-13 979-8710324011

After going through a breakup with her significant other in Texas, Fern suddenly finds herself washing out her cooter in a lake in Meridian, Mississippi. Fern is an adventurous young go-getter who loves to dance, drink, smoke, and unwittingly turn everyone’s world upside down by her mere presence alone! In Meridian, Fern finds and falls in love with a hard-working, career man, Curtis, who soon becomes entangled in her unhinged web of insanity, promiscuity, and utter ridiculousness. Curtis is openly gay – but this is no Will & Grace story! Once Fern is cut loose, all Hell breaks loose! Maybe she means well, but her efforts rarely end as intended. Fern goes after whatever she wants, and no one seems to stand in her way, but her life is a puzzle, and there are several pieces missing! This true story of real people will drive you nuts! A few names may have been changed to protect the guilty, but the situations are real and several people gave the okay to leave their names as is. Oh my! You will meet a variety of unforgettable and lovable characters whose lives are forever changed after meeting “Wayward Fern!” Would you take her in? Find out why you should…..or shouldn’t! There is literally no turning back. Buckle up and take a wild ride on the complex PTSD slide! 18+

Thelma Blankenship says, “Reading this book was like stepping in dog mess. I washed it all off of me, but the smell seems to linger.”
Hiener Judruld says, “190 pages is way more than I have ever read, but I couldn’t put this damn book down, and this time I didn’t have superglue on my fingers.”
Finesha LeRue says, “Oh my Jesus! I felt so weird after reading this book, but I hope there will be a series of them. I love bat-shit crazy stuff!”

Have you ever felt a little different? Are great LGBTQIA+ inclusive books hard to find? What about approaching topics like complex PTSD and BDD? Real, true-life stories of love, lust, torment, betrayal, abuse, passion, joy, and pain. Written with enough humor, an occasional tinge of sarcasm and inspiration from the heart. Click to read more or to see excerpts. Please enjoy!

Everyone needs at least one CHEESY photo! Curtis?

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Agnes
- Feb 17, 2021
- 4 min read

"Michael, Little Boy Black & Blue: Surviving the Effects of a Poisonous Child Abuser"

Updated: May 19, 2021

"Michael, Little Boy Black & Blue: Surviving the Effects of a Poisonous Child Abuser," is a coming of age LGBTQIA+ story of one boy's experiences with the adult aftermath of child abuse. His is a survival story of extreme child abuse, torture, violence, and its repercussions on him as an adult. This book is an LGBT child abuse memoir about overcoming unimaginable horrors and coping with complex PTSD. Michael is a gay adult survivor of such extreme child abuse that it resulted in the development of complex PTSD and BDD, after years spent with a repulsive child abuser. In this first memoir you can read about how he coped with the pain and agony while he was experiencing it. Decades of torture and torment that started when he was barely five years old, which continued through his adulthood, and even long after when fresh memories of his nightmarish childhood were unblocked and released - some after forty years. Now living with complex PTSD, Michael writes about the difficulty of feeling helpless while he was abused and of seeing his mother repeatedly tortured and verbally abused by his stepfather. They both suffered from this man's abuse, hunger, and torture at his hands, never knowing when or how it might end. Michael lived to write about it, but his mother did not. He is a survivor, who despite being told that he was worthless on a daily basis, learned to overcome the stigma and the wounds that his stepfather inflicted upon him, to become a successful teacher and to live a full life filled with hope, love and compassion. His story is not an easy one, but he adds his sense of humor throughout the book. He can even laugh at some of his experiences now. He shows us his resilience and his will to live, even during the darkest of days. Michael hopes that his story will inspire others and show that it is possible to thrive even after living through decades of abuse. No childhood is perfect, but if there is a tragic story that can bring hope - this one is it!

Michael has several other books on the horizon, two more of which are nearing completion. If his first published account of his life of abuse goes over well, he intends to follow it up with additional episodes that he did not include in the first book, if there is interest in it. In "Michael, Little Boy Black & Blue," the author barely scratched the surface. But he did not write the book with the intention of publishing it. It was an exercise in therapy and self-help.

When he first had memory flash-backs, he knew that he needed professional help and he was able to seek it out right away. He was assigned to write about his childhood and abuse in an effort to free more blocked and compartmentalized memories, and to desensitize himself to recollections that were extremely uncomfortable. Michael decided to make his memoir of some of these experiences public - for all to see, if interested. He found it far more liberating than keeping it all inside. Michael said, "Writing it on paper is no different than keeping it bottled up inside, if I am still the only one aware of it!" Michael hopes to be able to help others who may be having difficulty coping with memories of childhood abuse. He has shared his love of miniatures and he realizes that building and creating a non-stop world of miniature structures was an escape/coping mechanism for himself. Now, Michael plans to use images of his dozens of structures in his books because they were always part of his life.

He will give you the good and the bad. Readers can share with him too. That is what this blog is for. It is for all of us. What have you been through? What holds you back? We're not experts but we can listen! We can share what we know and we will not judge you. If you feel like opening up, this is your chance. If you need to talk to Michael, will make sure he sees your message. Peace!

"Even at my darkest times, while being horribly abused and neglected, I tried to remain calm and I entertained myself in my head with anything that I could think of to take my mind off of what was happening!"

An excerpt from the book:

By the time I found myself hanging from a rotting wooden beam in an old dusty garage, with ropes tied around my wrists and black electrical tape wrapped around my head to cover my mouth, I had already become numb to near-daily abuse. I was eight when I gazed at the dirty concrete floor below my bare dangling feet, calmly wondering if I would fall or if the monster would swoop in at the last minute to save me. I stopped tasting the salt of my own tears, because I only cried for the first few minutes – this time.

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Agnes
- Feb 6, 2021
- 4 min read

Reviews! Thank you!

Updated: May 19, 2021

Top reviews

Top review from Australia

*****

Mimi Bunderla 5.0 out of 5 stars child abuse Reviewed in Australia on 3 February 2021Verified Purchase This is an inspirational book about a child abuse back in the 1960s and 1970s. I thoroughly enjoyed reading about Michaels experiences, and try to become the man he is today. Great reading :)

Top reviews from the United States

***** Jessica Hosey 5.0 out of 5 stars The best book I have read in a while Reviewed in the United States on February 4, 2021Verified Purchase This is a must read book! Thank you for sharing you life with us! If you write another book please let me know! ***** Beverly Dean 5.0 out of 5 stars Terrifying and humorous! LOVED it! Reviewed in the United States on February 2, 2021Verified Purchase A well written book of one man's account from childhood through adulthood dealing with the aftermath of physical and sexual abuse and PTSD. ***** ShanesGirl13 5.0 out of 5 stars An Absolute Must Read! Reviewed in the United States on January 30, 2021Verified Purchase If you're part of the LGBTQ+ community, a victim or survivor of abuse, Michael, Little Boy Black and Blue is a must-read. You will laugh at the precocious toddler and cry with the child growing up in an abusive environment. You will follow Michael as he goes through the grieving process for the child he was, the love he lost, and as he searches for a way to heal. I couldn't put this book down once I started it. I wanted to know what happened to the adorable toddler and follow his journey to the man he is today.

Top review from United Kingdom

***** Polly 5.0 out of 5 stars Raw and real account. Totally recommend. Reviewed in the United Kingdom on 5 February 2021Verified Purchase I read this book in super fast time as I couldn’t put it down. Well done Michael for having enormous courage to publish such a real and raw account of your life. There were some laughs and some tears. The detailed descriptions of observations made about people coming from a very young child were delightful. Which helped somewhat with the other parts to read. Your life has been quite extraordinary. It is written with photos throughout which bring it more to life for the reader. I definitely recommend this book.

*****

Andrea Collum 5.0 out of 5 stars A True Survivor's Story Reviewed in the United States on February 13, 2021Verified Purchase I ordered the book on Kindle as soon as it was available, and then ordered the paperback, too. I read it in one sitting. My emotions ran the gamut from profound sadness to joy, anger to happiness. Michael Hunter's recount of his life is a must read for survivors of abuse as well members of the LGBTQ community and allies. He tells of his life from an idyllic early childhood to current times and bares his life and soul to those of us who take this ride with him. His is the story of ultimate survival, after a lifetime of pain and suffering, and leaves us knowing that we can be battered, but never broken.

***** Klabak1 5.0 out of 5 stars A long road to recover Reviewed in the United States on March 28, 2021Verified Purchase How we survive our life is a testament of our strength. The author demonstrates through his memories a will to survive and a strength beyond what any 5 year old should have or need. I shed tears off and on through this book for not just the child but for the man that he became. Thank you for sharing your story Michael.

***** Becky 5.0 out of 5 stars A sad yet uplifting story of survival Reviewed in the United States on February 12, 2021Verified Purchase This book is winding journey. Sad and horrific stories yet there is a resilient hopeful and positive hope. It read very therapeutic for the Author as well as the reader.

***** Connie Ness 5.0 out of 5 stars An amazing story of survival and perseverance. Reviewed in the United States on March 26, 2021Verified Purchase Heartwarming to Unbelievable...a journey of survival. I could not put it down once I started. I smiled and giggled at the toddler...I cried for the lost innocence. I applaud the courage it takes to share your life story with us. I love and respect the man you have become. A must read!! ***** STACEY WELLS 5.0 out of 5 stars Survival Reviewed in the United States on April 6, 2021Verified Purchase This is amazing survival story. My brother was authors first love. ***** Kelly 5.0 out of 5 stars One definitely not to miss. Reviewed in the United Kingdom on March 5, 2021Verified Purchase I literally couldn't put this book down. Beautifully and so bravely written, poignant and hugely touching, Michael Little Boy Black & Blue sheds a bright light on the nightmare that is living with CPTSD and the horrendous abuse that so often goes on silently and untold. Couldn't recommend highly enough.

***** Janie Higgins 5.0 out of 5 stars A Must Read Reviewed in Canada on February 8, 2021Verified Purchase A well-written book~brutally honest but tinged with humour. You will want to read "Michael Little Boy Black & Blue: Surviving the Effects of a Poisonous Child Abuser" in one sitting. Highly recommend!